Invitation to trust

It was years ago when God told me he wanted me to write. I wasn’t happy about it. I had hated writing in school, and had no desire to communicate through the written word. I wasn’t about to say no, but I did ask if maybe he could change his mind. I felt guilty that I didn’t jump on it right away. The thing I’m finding is that sometimes God invites us to something and the expectation is we are to jump in right then and there, and then there are moments, where he almost offers a heads up, because if he doesn’t prepare us we might just turn around and run. (This is why I need to also learn to ask follow up questions like, when do you want this to happen?)

Getting to this moment has been a journey. Part of that journey has been trying to find my own voice, and while I’m closer than I was before I began this blog, I still have a long way to go. It’s a vulnerable thing to offer in process especially when the thing you’re working on is the medium you are using. Kind of makes me nauseous if I’m honest. But then this season prompted the beginning of this blog. All-of-a-sudden, things began clicking, and it felt like the moment to write. I made a plan. My plan was to post twice a week. To offer often, partially because I have a lot churning in my mind, but then I checked in with God. I should have asked before I began making plans.

Twice a week felt like a doable challenge. “Once, write once, and focus on doing it well.” The kindness of God, the invitation to trust him in this endeavor. Maybe you’re like me, and God gives you a call or invitation, and you accept it with joy, but then you try to bring it about on your own. I have wanted to trust him to give me what I need to cram more into my life, but being on this journey with him, he often invites me away from the grind. He invites me to be with him. Sitting at his feet everything falls into place. Even if we say nothing, just his presence is enough to fill me.

So friends, once a week it is. My prayer for you is that you pause and ask. I believe God is waiting to offer you the way to life. I know he will offer more of himself, and I pray that you take him up on it, so that you will find all that your heart is seeking. And as you draw nearer to him, everything else will be given to you. (Matthew 6:33)